What I Learned in Isolation

Before I was born, my heart started forming and beating, before my brain even formed.

The rapid heartbeats when my crush talks to me or when I make a friend.

The pain in my heart when I know that something is wrong.

Now I realize that my heart wanted me to know that the end is nowhere close. I could still find a friend and get the chance to fix my relationship with my mother. This pandemic made me change perspectives within the brain, which is holding the past, and making memories I will keep in my heart that were special for me.

It’s the last day of junior year and I’m on the way to be a senior. Sounds great, right? Well, not exactly.

2020 just hit us like a wrecking ball, telling us to sit down and think about the real world around you and I.

Since the pandemic started, WWIII started at home. It felt as if the entire world was falling apart. Before I even knew it, I had no friends, I was getting kicked out of my parents’ house, and my job wasn’t easier.

I was letting my brain hold the past and take over me every night. However, my heart was not ready to give up just yet. During this isolation period, an old friend of mine got a hold of me. She made me smile again and told me I was going to be fine. I let my heart guide me. When I did, everything changed.

My mom and I never got along, until the night I let my heart speak it’s truth. Days passed, and now my mom is hugging me and telling me she loves me. The more I listened to my heart, the better things got. The more the heart beats, the more you know that your life does have a meaning.

Just because you don’t feel your heart or don’t have a connection to your heart, doesn’t mean it stops beating for you every morning you wake up.

Your brain holds the past, your heart holds the future. I fight for what my heart feels is right to fight for.